I Wonder

to dream a dream 
conceived of you
it seems the seams 
undone but true
alive in shimmer
a river of simmer
I stammer to find every word
seeping through
your grace, your mind
the perfect of timing
your soul, divine
of beauty's defining
I'm lost in these moments
in striving to show you 
that nothing compares 
to all that you do
and all that you are
and all that you will be
your strength is untouched
your thoughts, all consuming
floating in clouds
sleeping in solace
giving a hope
I couldn't have thought up
let me just rest
inside of your wonder
I'm sure of your promise
my feiry goddess

Misstery

milling casually
breaking down the pieces 
I'm falling for your wordage
I hope it has a reason
the timing has me pacing
this room without the patience
to listen 
to everything 
I'm finding in refinement

now see
see

I knew I'd break the sequence

now see
see

I can't describe the almost something

boiling a ravished heart 
take it back to where we start 
maybe we could make it
in the moment before entering this
lonely only momentary broken bits of
fire hair
I'd stare at you forever 
but I know I make it 
awfully scary

let me bend your ear 
for just a second of your time
I'd rather burn inside the flames
than never get to 
see you smile

now see
see

a beauty that deserves a hero

see

please

I only want something that's real though

looking for my only one
let me listen to you sing
can't define in logic
but your light is
simply ravishing 

see

me

a bird without a window
peaking

please

tell me I'm not without you
this will do

before I fall for nothing
I hope to make you glisten
but if I can't
I'll go back to my hole
and ponder probably 

now see
see

I'm floating down the river

now see
see

a bow without a quiver

in letting go of sunsets
the storm went
and swept away

if only for a moment
I could feel you standing next to me

now see
see

my heart is finally beating

I like the way you think
I hope to never watch you
slip away

see

Just a Joke

Sea,
you around?
I'm only asking why these clouds
have settled down.

inside an autumn colored ottoman 
a collared twin is hiding
finding more alive and dying
for a second before my arrival
static off the ceiling leaving 
something I cannot believe in
seething I could dig below the earth 
and burn inside a feeling
breathing beaming dew drops
my heart stopped
restarted awful timing 
let me sleep for
just awhile 
or forever
I'm not counting 

Hearing Heartbeats

captive passion
having fun yet
last infraction 
go and find it
stabbing in my eardrum 

I'm last in line
confess infection
posting something teeming
with bitterness and screaming 

is it right to run away
from bear traps and mouse pads
recounting the moments
I didn't do enough
remember in glimpses
you never earned my love

is up and down 
the north to south
it's hard to tell 
under the stairs and stars
alarms in the sky 
remind me
I'm trying

I'd rather find it
dead than dying

Ironic

the scene of the crime
doing my time 
I'm trying to think
but losing my mind
sit in the stinging
roll with a punch
fall into standing
standing too drunk
fast times for fallen light
your name, it hurts
to touch
a losing game
the longest pain
I'll see you around
a stranger now

Got Me

get a grip, you're slipping slowly
seeing seasons changing boldly
moving onto moving upwards
falling down the stairwell backwards 
laughing after every step
stopping just to catch my breath
smoke a cigarette
relax
back into the fleeting sense of past

smacking wavelengths and serpants
I'm nervous on purpose
discussing 
deserting 
a person 
disturbing
I'm working

don't bother me

I search inside the opening 
see a place you used to sit and find myself

sitting in it

Breaking Stuff

something in the air tonight
combines with what I thought I want
as painting up a pretty song
a simple rhyme
I tried to hold
I hate to know 
I hate you now
accepting that the earth is round
deciding if my mind is sound 
it doesn't matter
slam to ground

have you ever tasted grace
it paints my world 
it cannot change
but I can
whether I want
or don't
I scream inside my car 
alone
and with a grudge to hold
go out to dinner
lying corpse

chaos meets with peace in vain as tranquil minds begin to fade arranging lines of leaving here I wake into a sphere of tears and stop crying long time ago I've felt this pain so long before I met you prepped in messes that I'm leaving where I make my bed I hope that you believe me that I'm trying but I'm not I know that I'm not what you want but I'm sure that someone else does
goodbye
good riddance
so long

you're gone

Abysmal

pay the piper 
watch him whistle
get to cover
forgot to miss you
stay right there
I'll be right back
I got you flowers
who is that
that is who
I am not
not am I
who you want
coloring in and out of lines
find a diamond
pretend it's mine
bury the sentiment
hide the crime
start at the end
forget to smile
chill instils a stark response
freeze in time
melt to dust

Thump

hyperventilate
sudden ample apathy
ramble backwards
the last word
losing calculations 
out in open
as chosen 
by no one
with any sense
porcelain proclaiming
something I would like to uninvent
marshy cove of crickets 
listen
blistering decisions
fishes hissing at the lion
chopping onions in the kitchen
mixed a little bit of luck 
with a bunch of other stuff
that I found inside the shed
surely keeping
feelings fed

Hello, Goodbye

hello, Belle
my beast to your beauty
the top of my tower 
waiting for you

goodbye to static
fickle forever
I'll see you around
in terrible weather

hello, unknowing
I know you too well
the days of my haze
concocted a spell

goodbye, compulsive 
too quick in your step 
I'll lasso your horns
and keep you in check

hello, sweet stranger
you found me in time
or did I find you
lemon to lime

goodbye, hello
hello, goodbye
night into morning
be kind
please rewind